Monday, January 23, 2012

Sand in the wind

I've never felt this tired holding on to a friendship. Lord please give me the strength to... move on.

We have been fighting a lot lately. We survived a big fight but the few smaller ones that followed could still destroy whatever we have. Wonder why things were easy during the first 3 months when we first knew each other, but roller coaster rides became more frequent lately.

Lord please give me wisdom to handle things between us. I admit I do behave childishly sometimes. But it is not that he has never done me wrong either. How can I let him see that forgiveness from both of us are important too?

It hurts so much to love. Love is patient, love is kind, it keeps no record of wrong and is not quick to anger. It is more difficult to stick to this definition of love when the other party doesn't know how many heart breaks I have to endure to still love him as he is. And he thinks he is the only victim.

Is Satan really going to win this time?

Thursday, January 5, 2012


You told me you could have spoken in English if you know English well.

But I think your English has improved very much. In fact, you don't have to stuggle to find words that best describe your anger or frustration.

Words that cut my heart.

So much of 'You're the first person in this house to introduce yourself and make friends with us!'

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Tiger mum in the making

It's not easy to be a tiger mum. You know you'll be hated for being strict to your children. You want the best for them and you want them to perform the best. You wish you could really chill and let your children 'learn their own way' but it's harder to do so than being a tiger mum itself.

I wish I don't have to balance between our friendship and your performance. I could have gone all out and make you ace your exam and then never want to see me again.

But I care about our friendship, too. Our friendship is very precious to me. Please help me to have faith in us, that our friendship is strong enough to withstand challenges of conflicts.

Beep beep :)

Monday, January 2, 2012

Favourite conversation

Me: Virtual pictionary was still quite fun because the players went crazy guessing the answers the same way we play real life pictionary. I was laughing in front of the screen when I couldn't make sense of someone's drawing, and later compared their drawings with the answer.
Vin: Lol!
Me: There was once I was asked to draw the word 'government' but I didn't know how to :(
Vin: It's ok, you could just draw them a guava :p