Look up.

Almighty God, thank you for being gracious and merciful to me. Guide me, O holy One, let my deeds reflect who You are. Let not my faith to You be dependent on circumstances in my life, but to believe in Your power at all times. Help me to focus on You and Your kingdom, and not distracted by worldly desire and judgement from man. Fill me with love, so that I may love others as unconditionally as how You've loved me. Grant me self control and discipline to avoid the things that will snatch my attention away from You. Hold me close, O Lord, for I belong to You.

I can't believe it, even the thought of making a cup of coffee for myself in a rainy night makes me happy. This little peaceful kind of joy has indeed left me for too long, now that it's back in me, I am about to burst!

This, is Cher Linn :)

Since I made up my mind to give up a ministry and decided to slowly put a little more effort in debating activities, I have to admit I do feel a lot better now. I felt relieved, and I miss this feeling. It's been so long I haven't felt like this that I almost forgot how it's like. Someone told me if we keep ignoring God's call, we will feel very miserable and not peaceful. I told her I know how it is like. I still need to pray for direction. And CWR daily devotion booklet is a really helpful material for quiet time :)

I talked to a number of friends, took effort to meet up (with old and new friends) and open up. Clearly I can't deny that I need the right people in my life. Not perfect individuals, but the right ones. With the right people, they always make the time spent together more enjoyable. And they are the ones who have been with me when I poured out to them.

Taking one step at a time, day by day. Life is getting exciting, again :)